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A diary, I guess

  • Calculus, Exercise, Phobias

    Things are back to normal with Allen. When he walked into Calculus and sat in front of me we didn’t say anything. Neither of us spoke the entire period actually. But after Calc we both have study hall. So when we got there I decided to just talk to him like normal, and if he… Read more

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  • Relationships

    I’m not talking about romantic relationships specifically, just any type of relationship with another person. I don’t have any solid relationships. Not even Allen knows about my eating disorder or my cutting (he does know I take antidepressants though). I don’t have anyone I can just talk to about anything. I sometimes lay in bed and… Read more

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  • The other Melanie.

    I have this one friend, Melanie. She, like Steve, is one of those people that everyone loves. She just has one of those personalities. We’ve always gotten along well, I think that’s weird because she has lots of friends and likes everyone while I have like four friends and dislike everybody. It’s probably because we… Read more

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  • Best friends, Bonfire, Binging

    Tonight I went to my friend’s bonfire. She turned 18 today but it wasn’t really a birthday party.  Allen wasn’t there. He did talk to me today though. After ignoring my texts for a long time he logged into Skype and I messaged him. All he said back was “hi” and then he proceeded to ignore me. I guess… Read more

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  • Hoarding, Coffee, Allen

    I was going to post about this yesterday, but I basically forgot. Yesterday at school, I was actually happy for a while. I had a casual conversation with a girl I don’t know in math class (that’s really hard for me, usually), and when I got to French like three seconds after this one kid… Read more

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