The Future

I’m going to be 18 in 13 days. I’m going to graduate in May. I’m going to be off to college by September.

The future seems so overwhelming to me. I need to find a job, because I need money. I need to find a job really bad. I’ve applied at like nine places but no one hired me. I think I will just have to wait until I turn 18, because a lot of jobs require you to be that old to work there. Until then I’m looking into volunteering at the library. My mom said that she would pay me for volunteer hours, so that’ll be something.

College is stressing me out too. I’ve applied at two schools in my state so far (including one very near to Steve, I would love to be close to him), but I also really want to apply to a school or two in Chicago. I love Chicago a lot. I love New York and Boston too, but those are both much farther away from me. The problem is the application for the University of Chicago requires two essays and two letters of recommendation. I don’t know it just makes me really nervous because UChicago is my dream school. I have a poster of their campus on my wall. By applying it would become so real. I would have to face the possibility that I might not actually get in. It’s a pretty competitive school and I don’t have many extra curriculars.

Plus, going anywhere in Chicago would be super freaking expensive. Another reason for me to find a damn job. Sigh.