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A diary, I guess

  • The Future

    I’m going to be 18 in 13 days. I’m going to graduate in May. I’m going to be off to college by September. The future seems so overwhelming to me. I need to find a job, because I need money. I need to find a job really bad. I’ve applied at like nine places but… Read more

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  • Driving, Whisperer Wednesdays, Ellen

    So, yesterday I went to school and had an awful time, then went to get tacos with Allen (I successfully fooled him into thinking that I was full and saving the rest of mine for when I got home.), raked the yard, watched too much TV, cleaned my room, and went to bed. ‘Twas a very uneventful… Read more

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  • Calculus, Exercise, Phobias

    Things are back to normal with Allen. When he walked into Calculus and sat in front of me we didn’t say anything. Neither of us spoke the entire period actually. But after Calc we both have study hall. So when we got there I decided to just talk to him like normal, and if he… Read more

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  • Relationships

    I’m not talking about romantic relationships specifically, just any type of relationship with another person. I don’t have any solid relationships. Not even Allen knows about my eating disorder or my cutting (he does know I take antidepressants though). I don’t have anyone I can just talk to about anything. I sometimes lay in bed and… Read more

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  • The other Melanie.

    I have this one friend, Melanie. She, like Steve, is one of those people that everyone loves. She just has one of those personalities. We’ve always gotten along well, I think that’s weird because she has lots of friends and likes everyone while I have like four friends and dislike everybody. It’s probably because we… Read more

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