Relationships

I’m not talking about romantic relationships specifically, just any type of relationship with another person. I don’t have any solid relationships. Not even Allen knows about my eating disorder or my cutting (he does know I take antidepressants though). I don’t have anyone I can just talk to about anything. I sometimes lay in bed and cry about not having anyone who deeply cares about me.

I think it’s my fault though. Whenever I spend time with someone for a long amount of time, they start to annoy me. Every single time.  I don’t understand these people who have had the same best friend since they were babies or have been in these long-term relationships. I would love to have that. But I can’t be around anyone that often. What is wrong with me?

I just wish I had someone to talk to.