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A diary, I guess

  • Break up

    I’ve been treating this whole Allen situation like a break up. In the sense that I just try not to think about it and how it hurts to see him at school. We weren’t dating but he is..well..was my best friend. I love him. and now he doesn’t even acknowledge my existence. Because we were so close,… Read more

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  • EDNOS

    About a year ago, I was diagnosed with Eating Disorder Not Otherwise Specified and severe depression. If you don’t know exactly what EDNOS is, it means you have an eating disorder that doesn’t fall into any of the main categories (Anorexia, Bulimia, Binge Eating Disorder, etc.). Basically I’ve only ever thrown up food on purpose… Read more

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  • Movies, Shopping, the Zoo

    We had a ‘family day’ today. It was pretty terrible. I didn’t fall asleep until around 5am last night. And my dad woke me up at noon telling me that we were going into the city to spend the day together. I had to take a five minute shower and didn’t even have time to… Read more

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  • Trying,

    I’m trying really hard to be happy. I’m trying really hard to not fall back into my rut of watching television constantly and binging. I’m trying really hard to get shit done, like scholarship, college, and job applications. But I’m stuck in the middle. I am constantly trying to resist my urge to just lay… Read more

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  • My future self

    I just..I have this vision of my future self in my head. I don’t want to be this ugly girl who hates everyone and does nothing but watch TV and obsess about her weight (lost three pounds last week, by the way). The vision I have is this girl who is pretty, in an unconventional… Read more

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