Trying,

I’m trying really hard to be happy. I’m trying really hard to not fall back into my rut of watching television constantly and binging. I’m trying really hard to get shit done, like scholarship, college, and job applications.

But I’m stuck in the middle. I am constantly trying to resist my urge to just lay down and watch season 3 of Las Vegas. I’m also constantly trying to bring myself to get shit done. I don’t want to do either. Nothing makes sense.

Today I was going to go to the mall after school and fill out job applications. I was then going to get my hair cut and stop at the store to get deodorant and foundation. But instead, I got home from school and fell asleep on the couch. So I think I’ll go tomorrow..