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A diary, I guess

Executive Dysfunction

When I was younger I would wonder what was wrong with me. I felt like I was physically incapable of getting anything done. Sometimes having a deadline and a sense of urgency got me to do the work, but sometimes that wasn’t enough and I would end up in a downward spiral until I was… Read more

May 20, 2026

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adhd, depression, executive dysfunction, Journal, wfh, working
Wedding planning, Serving, Nicotine

I just ordered a new black zip up hoodie and on the back it says GRACEROCKYSAVESTARS I’m excited because Project Hail Mary is one of my favorite books and the movie is incredible, and my current black hoodie is getting old and starting to get little holes in it because I wear it like 300… Read more

May 14, 2026

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blog, depression, Journal, life, love, mental-health, neurodivergent, nicotine, project hail mary, relationships, serving, wedding planning, writing
Don’t litter

I took a walk today, because I’ve been very stressy and depressy lately. And I know exercise and fresh air tends to do good so instead of getting a ride home from the mechanic I walked. In a way it actually made me feel worse. There was so much garbage along the sidewalk and stuck… Read more

May 10, 2026

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adhd, depression, environment, garbage, Journal, life, littering, writing
Update, 14 years later

I’m so sick of hating myself. I want to be happy. But I’ve been saying that for like 15 fucking years and here I am, still unhappy with myself. Sometimes I wonder if there’s even a point in trying anymore. I’m no longer suicidal and I very rarely hurt myself these days so I am… Read more

April 24, 2026

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depression
ADD, acting, Kurt

My therapist thinks I have ADD (Attention Deficit Disorder). Well, a type of ADD. She said there are like six categories and one of them is basically a mixture of depression, ADD, and OCD. Which sounds exactly like me. She gave me some surveys to give to the people closest to me. I gave them… Read more

March 31, 2012

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acting, add, annoying sisters, college, depression, friendship, monopoly, ocd, relationships

Executive Dysfunction

Wedding planning, Serving, Nicotine

Don’t litter

Update, 14 years later

ADD, acting, Kurt