ADD, acting, Kurt

My therapist thinks I have ADD (Attention Deficit Disorder). Well, a type of ADD. She said there are like six categories and one of them is basically a mixture of depression, ADD, and OCD. Which sounds exactly like me. She gave me some surveys to give to the people closest to me. I gave them to Melanie, Nicole, and my parents to fill out. I gave one to Stella too, but I don’t think she is very observant. Because so far, her answers have been completely different than everyone else’s.

I kind of hope I have it. Because then they can get me on some proper medication and I can start to feel like myself again. Unfortunately, my therapist just left this morning to go on vacation for freaking six weeks. So I won’t get the results until then!

Oh, I decided where I’m going to go to college. I feel like a huge weight has been lifted from my shoulders. But I still have a job to worry about. Which is kind of more important anyway.

I also discovered a way to make being around my mom more bearable. I’ve always thought that I was a pretty good actress, but I could never really prove it because all of the shows around here are musicals, and I can’t sing. So I’ve decided that around my mom, I’ll put on a show. I’ll play the part of a girl who likes her mother, who actually gets along with her. I just thought of it this morning but it’s already working.

In other news, Alex broke up with his girlfriend. Melanie was really excited. She was actually jumping up and down in the hallway today when she told me. I was excited too, but mostly just because I want Melanie to be happy. Although, when she told me, I did feel a pang of jealousy. Now Melanie and Stella both have boyfriends. It makes me feel a tad bit more alone.

I get to see Kurt this weekend <3 I’m excited. But Nicole is coming. Which is weird. I’m going to play monopoly with Kurt and some of my other friends and I guess one of them invited her. I don’t want her to come. I love her, but not in social situations. She isn’t going to know most of the people there so she is going to try to make them like her by being ditzy and snapping at me ‘playfully’ for stupid stuff.

Usually I’d just not go, but I really want to see Kurt.

xoxo,

Melanie