So much for motivation..

I was all excited to clean my room and fill out some job apps when I checked my email to find that I’ve been accepted to the college I wanted to go to.  That got me even more excited to I called Nicole and then ran down stairs to tell my parents.

My mother proceeded to tell me that I can’t afford to go there. I didn’t fucking apply anywhere else so now I don’t know what the fuck is going to happen. It’s the only place I applied and now I don’t know where I’m going to go or what I’m going to do.

Now because I’m lazy and don’t have a job I don’t have any money so I can’t afford to go anywhere and I’ll probably end up going to some community college and living at home.

and now I’m crying. I feel like my entire future is down the tubes now.

Why